Only 8 months and 2 days to go!! :)
So far - I basically just feel hungover! Very tired - nauseous - and hungry. The only time I feel good is when I'm eating, and that only lasts about 5 minutes before the food starts to taste gross and I'm done with it.
If there's ever an hour or so when I feel normal - I get worried something's wrong - but I just keep telling myself that the waiting is the easy part, and worrying won't get me anywhere!!
First u/s is going to be April 6th - so I'll update then!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
When you're down on your hope ... God always has a surprise for you!!
Sunday Morning - 12 dpiui - I took a internet cheapie test, but then fell back asleep. When I woke up, there was a definate line ... but it was blurred w/ the pink dye, so could have been just an evaporation line.
Monday Morning - 13 dpiui - scared to take real test, Nick says "Don't do it." I say, "Yeah right"
Took two tests ... both show two lines ... broke out the digital and it said "PREGNANT"
Unbelievable - we were both in shock all day long!
First Beta Test Monday afternoon = hcg levels at 85. A decent number for 13 dpo.
Second Beta Test Wednesday afternoon = hcg levels at 235, more than doubling!!
I gotta call tomorrow morning to schedule the first ultrasound, it will be early to make sure that all implantation is in the right spot and to check on how many beans are in there ... I'm fairly certain only one with my numbers!
It's still super early (4wks2days to be exact) so we are nervous about a m/c ... but since we chose to be so open and honest about our Infertility journey, we decided to just shout it out ot the world now :)
Baby VandenBerg ... coming Dec. 2009!
Monday Morning - 13 dpiui - scared to take real test, Nick says "Don't do it." I say, "Yeah right"
Took two tests ... both show two lines ... broke out the digital and it said "PREGNANT"
Unbelievable - we were both in shock all day long!
First Beta Test Monday afternoon = hcg levels at 85. A decent number for 13 dpo.
Second Beta Test Wednesday afternoon = hcg levels at 235, more than doubling!!
I gotta call tomorrow morning to schedule the first ultrasound, it will be early to make sure that all implantation is in the right spot and to check on how many beans are in there ... I'm fairly certain only one with my numbers!
It's still super early (4wks2days to be exact) so we are nervous about a m/c ... but since we chose to be so open and honest about our Infertility journey, we decided to just shout it out ot the world now :)
Baby VandenBerg ... coming Dec. 2009!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
9dpiui
No real update ... just updating to update I guess. Wait ....
Wait ....
Cry ....
Wait ....
Hope ....
Wait...
Wait ....
Cry ....
Wait ....
Hope ....
Wait...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
1dpiui
IUI #4 went smoothly - good numbers all around. I actually felt the best afterwards that I have ever before - not too crampy or anything. Emotionally, I do not feel the best and I am not very hopeful. It just seems unrealistic that God will give me a baby in the time I want it the most. But then again - He loved Jacob, and he was far from perfect.
The waiting (for the 16th time) begins ...
The waiting (for the 16th time) begins ...
Monday, March 9, 2009
CD 10 = 1 Big One
Well - the ultrasound today showed one dominant follie on my right side, no big players on the left. I was disappointed because two or three definately gives us a better chance - and my left feels full to me so I don't get why it's hurting me when there's nothing there!!
Lining was good - above an 8 so that's awesome for this point.
IUI #4 is scheduled for 2:00pm tomorrow ... 30 hours after the HcG shot, so I'm pretty comfortable with that timing.
And then the next round of waiting begins ...
The Lord God is our light and protector. He gives us grace and glory. No good thing will the Lord withold from those who do what is right. Psalm 84:11
Lining was good - above an 8 so that's awesome for this point.
IUI #4 is scheduled for 2:00pm tomorrow ... 30 hours after the HcG shot, so I'm pretty comfortable with that timing.
And then the next round of waiting begins ...
The Lord God is our light and protector. He gives us grace and glory. No good thing will the Lord withold from those who do what is right. Psalm 84:11
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
CD5 - First shot!!
I just gave myself my first shot ~ not as bad as I thought, though it's stinging a little now and I'm not sure if that's normal or not!! *shrugs*
I'm just anxious to make it through this month - not super convinced it's going to work because my blood test is probably going to be the same day as Molly's baby shower - and that would just be too easy to find out I'm pregnant on the same day. That doesn't mean that I'm not excited to meet my niece - it just means that I wish so badly I could have a cousin for her in me before she gets here!
Ok ... off to get LOST and forget about all the fertility stuff for a while!
I'm just anxious to make it through this month - not super convinced it's going to work because my blood test is probably going to be the same day as Molly's baby shower - and that would just be too easy to find out I'm pregnant on the same day. That doesn't mean that I'm not excited to meet my niece - it just means that I wish so badly I could have a cousin for her in me before she gets here!
Ok ... off to get LOST and forget about all the fertility stuff for a while!
Monday, March 2, 2009
CD3 = Biohazard Container!!
Well, the ultrasound went good this morning ~ no cysts for me!! Even that one that was lingering is gone!
The nurse said that even if our tests tomorrow (sperm antibodies) comes back bad, we'll probably keep with the IUI this month anyways. But she also told me not to even worry about it because such a small percentage of people have it ... but I can't stop worrying because who's to say we're not that small percentage?!?
I got my Follistim pen today, along with needles, alcohol swaps, and my very own "Sharps" biohazard container.
Watch out ... I'm growing my own pharmacy here!
Overall ~ I'm feeling a little bit better than right after the bad news of failed IUI #3 ... the sermon in church yesterday left me feeling selfish - and thinking that we really should just do adoption because maybe we would have a baby by now ... then I re-looked up the numbers for the cost of it, and remembered why we can't do adoption. That would have to be five-ten years down the line for saving up for it ... who knows, maybe it will be!
"He alone is my rock and my salvation, he is my fortress, I will never be shaken." Psalm 62:2
I felt a little shaken last week ~ but I held on strong and I know my Faith will carry me through, and I know all my amazing friends are here to help me!
The nurse said that even if our tests tomorrow (sperm antibodies) comes back bad, we'll probably keep with the IUI this month anyways. But she also told me not to even worry about it because such a small percentage of people have it ... but I can't stop worrying because who's to say we're not that small percentage?!?
I got my Follistim pen today, along with needles, alcohol swaps, and my very own "Sharps" biohazard container.
Watch out ... I'm growing my own pharmacy here!
Overall ~ I'm feeling a little bit better than right after the bad news of failed IUI #3 ... the sermon in church yesterday left me feeling selfish - and thinking that we really should just do adoption because maybe we would have a baby by now ... then I re-looked up the numbers for the cost of it, and remembered why we can't do adoption. That would have to be five-ten years down the line for saving up for it ... who knows, maybe it will be!
"He alone is my rock and my salvation, he is my fortress, I will never be shaken." Psalm 62:2
I felt a little shaken last week ~ but I held on strong and I know my Faith will carry me through, and I know all my amazing friends are here to help me!
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